specially dedicated to

Alia Flash/Shalala/Turner ( :

My brother deleted something that i posted the other day.
And she's upset.

hahahahaha.


Happy dahh ?



xxxx,
Faarrraahh Nk.

you got a big ego

Enough said. I have to really buck up and study harder.

I've been reading the dictionary a whole lot today.
Making me look like i'm some kind of an imbecile or more like a maniac.

Surprisingly,

I find me, reading the dictionary..


very.
very.
very.

Hard to believe.

i'm standing up and enough is enough

My life's great, lovely and fun. That i have to admit. I just need to loosen up a lil and keep my options wide open.
I know life has a lot to offer. I know that. Sometimes, i get too carried away with my thoughts that i end up crying like a pig. Let me remind you, i am paranoid. Sometimes, especially when my mind goes haywire. I know those thoughts are just transitory but i can't help but think about it until i finally get my answer. Sometimes my thoughts can be a vague feeling of sadness because sometimes it's really hard for me to accept changes that has happened in my life. These crazy thoughts usually and mainly are about friends and studies. And i still keep wondering why it dwells around them and nothing else. And that is the great part because once i've reached home, those thoughts vanishes away like a genie hiding back in its teapot.

I have to say, my mind and my heart is totally incompatible. They will never make the same decision when it comes to some issues. Weird but definitely true. I should really follow what kak billa says. I should stop scrutinizing about what people say or things that happen around me. It's better that way. I'm feeling better today. So much better today. Anyway, life's too short to dwell on all that's wrong. I'll just close my eyes and push it all away.

Who knows how to love you without being told.

scribbles here and there

Impressive ey ?
Really, Fashion is Love, people.

xxxx.

take a bow

Been reading teha's blog. And i see MU all over it. Frankly, i was never into this football thingy. I mean, i like the red devils. Just that, i wasn't the type of person who'd sacrifice my sleep just to watch a football match. I've tried doing it a few times. I'll get all excited at first, the next thing i know is that i'll hear my brother's voice waking me up asking me to go to bed as the game is pretty much over. Cool huh ? But it all changed when i went to see them when they came to Malaysia. They look so awesomely and incandescently hot. And they waved at me. Well, kak billa insists that they actually waved at her, personally. Whatever it is, i know Van der Sar did wave at me. Even Rooney, even Tosic, even Carrick, even Anderson, even Nani, even Owen, even Giggs, even Evra did. Okay, each of them did wave at me. And, i find that day outrageously symbolic. I understand football more now. I even wish that i get to see them in Old Trafford one fine day. I still don't watch their game everytime they play though. But, i always make sure i know who scored. and i make sure that i know who they're playing with next and such. That's a great achievement i suppose so. Despite it all, i can say that i am addicted to them. You know, when you feel the force of attraction between ourselves and something else. Yes, that's how i feel. I thank the reds for coming though. They really, really, really made an impact on me. WOW. A big impact that kind off made my perception on everything change. Literally. You know, i even told my parents that i want to be a sports journalist when i grow up. Their answer was simple, 'lets see how long you're going to last with this ambition of yours. you've been changing your ambition every month'. So, it's gonna be the red devils against gunners this week. Greatest luck sweetbugs.

Glory glory Man United. And the Reds go marching on, on, on !

in the end, it doesn't even matter

Holidays have just begun. I must say, it's a good thing. I get to study my butt out. And i get to rejuvenate at the same time. It has been really fun. Mama took a few days off. Spent every moment i had with my family which was fun and really great. Been spending my time studying too. I think i'm gonna post a few random things about me or whatever i can think of right now.

I can be clumsy. But still, i make sure my place or my area is neat at ALL times.
I am picky. Whenever it comes to food and buying clothes.
I can consider myself a shopaholic. When i have money that is.
When i don't, i just window shop. That's more than enough to make my day.
I am short. Surprisingly, i just realised that.
I promise never to do any new year resolutions ever again. I never follow or accomplish them by the end of every year.
I love to read. But i've stopped reading for quite some time now. Look where it got me.
I used to love the color pink so much that everything has to be in pink.
But that was years ago. I go for any color. Which ever that looks good on me.
I always sleep late but i can never seem to wake up late. I'll always wake up early. That explains the eyebags.
I don't give up easily. I am no quitter.
I am addicted to Facebook. Oh well, who cares ?
I am talkative. Very talkative. But i am shy deep within me.
I have ambitions. Too many that i get sick whenever i think about it.
I love rain. Somehow, it completes my day.
I love to write.
I am unstable. I can just wobble and trip or fall while i'm walking.

I love making new friends.
I easily get bored but i always find something beneficial to do.
I find sweet talkers sweet and adorable but i despise them a lot.
I don't really know who to trust in my life. So, i only trust my loved ones(familia).
I don't really mind with what people has got to say about me. I just keep quiet when they do. They have the right to do so anyway.
I don't hold grudges. What good does it even make ?
I think i have changed in some way or another. And i like what i've become.
I am still the ol' sensitive me. But i only get sensitive when i need to.
No one knows me well enough to judge me. No one will. That's simply because i'm hard to read and so much harder to understand. But i am never complicated. Neither am i complex. I just love twisting my words and turning it topsy turvy. haha : )
But..
At the end of everything..

I am who i am no matter what. So for that, no one can change me.

Ever.

someone special who could it be

There is this someone in my life.
That has always played a big role in my life.
Taught me how to walk, how to talk, good manners.
And everything else.
This someone used to be really strict.
But as the years went by, this someone changed a lot.
This someone is always fair and is always kind.
This someone was always been there for me whenever i needed a shoulder to cry on.
Even when i needed someone to talk to.
Or at any time this someone would always be there.
We would talk about everything.
The world, life even love.
This someone has never abandoned me.
No matter how bad i am.
Even when i am at my worst.
This someone taught me many things.
More than a teacher could offer.
More than anyone could offer.
This someone is my everything.
Nobody can ever replace this someone of mine.
No, this special very special someone of mine.
And.
This special someone is my mother.
Someone who brought me into this world.
Taught me everything i needed to know.
We always argue.
But we will just laugh about it in the end.
And so the story goes..
And i will love her til the end.
Even after the end too.