Do you remember when we didn't care ?

Been away for quite some time. Busy handling issues, studies and life. You know, I am just so sick and tired of going through the same ol' same crap again and again. It's never ending, i tell you. Despite all that, I'm loving my books more now. And I've been absorbing everything that I've read or studied. Thank God, I'm running out of time. So kudos to me.

This has been my problem since the day i was born. I can never understand people and personalities. Sometimes, it's just so hard for me to accept when people around me starts to change or even when things starts to get all different. But as time flies, I am able to accept all the changes occurring around me. And now, I am good friends with changes. What a big achievement ey ?

I tend to be friends with the wrong people. Trust the wrong people. Fall for the wrong people. Like the wrong people. Say its right when its wrong. Say its wrong when its right. Think about something so hard that I'll get a severe headache at the end of it. Oh, you know. The usuals. I find it really great because every time this problems occur, it will just go away once i step into my favourite place in the entire world, home sweet home, baby. Its like there's this magnetic force at my gate that will pull all my unwanted miseries, away from me. Which is good. So I thank God for all the blessings that I have. I still can't deny the fact that I'll still think about the problems once in a while though.

Some people, we don't need to mention names here. They just don't know how to appreciate people. I've met those type of people. Not many, just a few. But more than enough to create a big hole in my heart. These are the people that I find very hard to fathom. I get along very well with them but to the extend that will make them just leave me like some piece of rubbish some day. Then, in a few months time, they will come running back to me. Asking me how I've been doing and so to speak. But by then, forgive me for saying this, I no longer need you and that very irritating and mindless attitude of yours lingering in my life anymore. While waiting for my recovery from heartbreaks, that's the part where family and supportive friends come in. My family(parents, sibling and cousins)who has always been there for me never the less, helped me and supported me through it all. And friends, who never fail to light up my dark days with jokes, laughter and non-stop happiness. This are the people, I wouldn't mind spending the rest of my life with. But who am I to talk about the future. But at least, I can still hope and pray that the kind of friendship that I have now are the ones that can be kept til my very last breath. Okay, that's a wee-bit over-rated.

I don't want to dwell on all that's wrong. It's just plain wrong that way. High school consists of things that are transitory minus the fact that examinations are permanent. I'm starting to procrastinate a lot really. Not good, I know. And wonder why I'm filled with paranoia lately. Weird but definitely true.

Lastly before i forget. Things are starting to look clearer now. Everything seems to be happening for a reason though sometimes I myself, can't seem to comprehend.


Still, life has to go on.


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