A big HAHA to me, please. I deserve to be laughed at, right at this very moment. Please to say that I am very much confuse right now. With everything to be precise. Everything seems so wrong. I guess everything happens for a good reason. Though I feel like crying out so loud and just shouting out the so-called pain inside of me, I am grateful that this all happened. I guess, I cannot deny the fact that this issue could possibly crop up again anytime soon but then, at this point of time this particular issue will remain in my thoughts til I have the time to re-think about what has been done.
I don't wish for whatever I wished before because come to think of it, hoping for feelings to be easily captured by other people, hoping for thoughts to be easily fathomed, hoping for mood swings to be easily understood is just impossible. I am just so sick and tired of all this. I always fall back into this kind off situations. No matter how much I try to run away, I can never succeed. I tend to lose even more at the end of everything. Which is unfair on my side, but still nothing can be done.
Really, I am so fed up. I feel like screaming my lungs out to a cat. Seriously. No kidding.
I feel stupid, seriously dumb and stupid. For actually thinking that something positive could possibly come out of all this. Silly silly me. This is all just not worth it. Its extremely a waste of time and a waste of energy. I just have to let it all out. I have to say what I feel. I have to make sure nothing more is kept inside. I have to make sure of this. I guess, I'm still confused with myself. I know, I know everything happens for a reason. It sounds remarkably simple, but its not as simple as that. Saying it is easier than dealing with it. Its just much more complicated.
I need a break.
Maybe, I need a break from the world. I'll try living in my shell and I'll try not to come out. I'll only come out when I need too. Yes, I'll try doing that. At least, just to please myself. At least, doing that won't hurt me. At least, doing that seems fair enough. At least, I can still try to make amends with my heart.
At least, I am trying.
Maybe, I need a break from the world. I'll try living in my shell and I'll try not to come out. I'll only come out when I need too. Yes, I'll try doing that. At least, just to please myself. At least, doing that won't hurt me. At least, doing that seems fair enough. At least, I can still try to make amends with my heart.
At least, I am trying.
2 comments:
weh, what's wrong? be tough girl. cry first, let it out... tp then, dah... jgn pulak kau menangis smpai tak berhenti. weh, ... hold on there, ok?
Nothing in this world can be labeled as dumb and stupid...it is called life experience. :) hang in there.. <3
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