you're the cheese on my macaroni

This came to my mind as soon as i woke up this morning. What love really means. I don't know. Really i do not know why it even popped into my head out of the blue. It was tough though searching for an answer since i am only fifteen and i do not even know what on earth life is all about.

So i went to school today thinking about what love really means. It did not interfere my thoughts while i was doing my exams though. Then i went home after school. Still thinking of an answer. I had lunch and yes, i was still thinking and searching for an answer. It really bothers me when i don't find an answer to my questions. Really. So i watched a movie while i was having my lunch. And suddenly, this phrase from the movie made me wonder.. Maybe, just maybe this is the answer to my question. Love is when you find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what you have, how smelly you are, when you have a bad hair day, when things go all wrong and messed up that day, however the condition and situation is, the right person is still going to think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with. Let me add some more though. Maybe love is real when you don't get bored of seeing the same person every single day, hearing out their problems day in and day out, receiving text messages from him or her everyday, arguing over the littlest things and even the biggest issue but still you'll laugh about it and say sorry and what happened before will just bear in mind and so to speak. Maybe, who knows that's what love really means. I really want to know. Growing up, i have always believed that love comes softly and naturally. You just have to wait no matter how long it takes and you need to have faith because in the end, the right one will come along.

throw up your arms into the sky

Today is the beginning of an end. Okay, literally it was. Okay, fine. Today is the beginning of my trials. Which i can say was superbly oh-god-i-am-speechless-dude. Screw that. Might as well, i think about my paper tomorrow which pretty much is much more important than today's paper which i cannot deny is equally important too but still tomorrow's paper is much more important. Oh geez, i wonder why i keep twisting my words upside down a lot lately. I really do hope that i get better grades compared to my previous examinations.

Here's a question. Do you agree with me if i say that we say we lead our own lives but truthfully and ironically sometimes, other people's life play a big role in our lives sometimes even bigger that our role of leading our own lives ? I disagree but still i can't deny the fact that sometimes it does affect our lives. Me especially. I used to want other people's life so badly that i tend to chuck mine aside and ruin it. But as i grew older and as i overcame my fears and irrational thoughts, i have come to a conclusion that pleases me and that is to live your life and cherish each and every moment you have. I mean, life's too short. Why not just live the life we want and work hard to strive and achieve what we want? Right?

I have my own view and perspective on things. I might disagree with some issues and i might agree with other issues. We have our own rights. Don't we ? We are all individuals with different minds but all with two eyes, ears, a mouth, nose, a pair of hands, legs and a body. We may or might be different by our color, race and religion. But still we are all creations of God. And. We determine our future.

Yours truly.

you don't know what you've got til it's gone

My weekends have come to an end. And finally, once and for all. This means that I cannot blog 'sesuka hati' anymore. Or online. I don't mind really. I need some time alone. Some time for myself. Some time to thing about what i really want. Its hard to make decisions. And yes, i need to study. My time is running out.

With love.

viva forever

My brother. He loves to bully me, but still i love him.

Sis Billa. My lovely cousin.

Faris:) hahaha. My cousin too.

Training day. The weather was eratic. Too hot to be true. And we came unprepared. It didnt occur to us that the weather was going to be that bad. But luckily we came with our shades. And the training passes saved our day. We used it as a fan. The day got better just as soon as we saw the players.

i'll be loving you until

I had heaps of fun today in school. Spent the whole day near the koperasi. Finally completed my anyaman rotan. HAHA. We laughed and laughed like toddlers playing in the rain. Bullied one another, in a good way of course. All in all, it was great having the opportunity to spend some quality time with them.

*will update further on later.

Loves.

headlines

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What was i thinking?
I really don't know.
Spontaneous Stunt, maybe.
HAHA.

these two, definitely are my idols.

And last but not least, *drumrolls**again and again*

Boy, isn't he just gorgeous ?
My favourite among all:)

loves:)

but i think i'll be alright

Today, while i was half-awake waiting for my mum, i was getting this flashbacks of my life. I nearly cried. Some were crazy, happy and awesome flashbacks - majority were. But a few made me wonder. Then it occured to me. That the few flashbacks that i got mainly happened because of the changes that happened to the people who were in it. You see, people use people. Some for their own benefit. Some for the joy in using others. Some because they really need too. Its just plain lethargic and gross. To me that is. I find it hard to believe that i've trusted those kind off people. But i guess, that's all in the past. I have outgrown myself. I am okay now. A year older and a year wiser than before. I look at things differently now from my own perspective and view. I don't judge or critisize others easily and blindly. I make sure i've arranged my words and than i'll put it into an acceptable phrase. At least, i try to make others happy. I am only human. I am prone into making mistakes once in a while. But still, i do think about it at times. How people can just turn your life upside down. And everytime when i try hard to find the answer, the harder it gets to find one. So now, i don't waste my time thinking anymore. It gets me no where. I just move on and sometimes still think about it. I know i will find the answer someday. I'm sure.