I feel ...

so stupid. Should have known better that this was just a game from the start.

viva la vida

- Welcome to the planet.

In about two days time, we will finally meet 2010. I don't know whether I am looking forward to a brand new, refreshing year or not. Sometimes, I just wish time would stop by itself. Indirectly, this gives me the priviledge to enjoy the way things are now.

I used to love making new year resolutions. Truth be told, I do it every year. Listing down all the things that I wanna accomplish by the end of the year. Un-surprisingly, I always fail to accomplish them. Which I find completely unfortunate and unpleasant. I've been accomplishing things that I least expect would even happen to me. So, for the year 2010, NO MORE resolutions. Just go with the flow and face life as it is. No questions asked.

Random events that happened in 2009 ;

- This is not that random, I got not-so-goody-good results for my PMR.

- I've changed my thoughts about people that I know.

- I don't judge a book by its cover.

- I seldom argue. I give in a lot.

- I had a few major nervy b's.

- I've had just enough of people playing games with my heart.

- I finally know what I want in life and where I proudly stand.

- And that I am proud to be a Malaysian.

- I find is so difficult to understand people these days.

- And also the fact that, I had fun this year.

- Oh and also, I loss two kilos this year. 

Haha, lame.

I heart Rob, au revoir. 

pocket full of sunshine

Miracles happen when you least expect it.

- wish my miracle came true.

I heart Rob, bye.

how easy it would be to show me how you feel.

- So thanks for making me a fighter.

Sometimes, the things that happen to you, are the things that you least expect will happen to you. So i guess, in my case, this is obviously something that I least expect would happen. But it did, before I could try to even refrain it from happening. Even so, I am trying to deal with it with all my might. I surely do hope it'll end as soon as possible, for better or for worse. Just, make it end.

I just wonder, I keep doind the wrong things on repetition. I mean, it never ends. And by the wrong things, I mean doing and making the wrong decisions when it comes to my personal affairs. I do realise where I went wrong and what I did wrong. But I can never stop it from happening. Cause automatically it will just happen again. So I hope, this time I am not making the wrong decision. This is by far, my final straw. For now, that is. I just hope it works out and turns out well.

I heart Rob, bye. 

haven't met you yet

It lasted for only ONE night. Aren't i just LUCKY ?

I heart Rob, bye.

catching and releasing.

Okay now THIS situation is confusing. 

And it just doesn't get any better.

Wonderful.

Like NOT.

I heart Rob, bye.

whats done is done.

- I don't know but I think I may be falling for you.

My results wasn't that excellent and at the same time it wasn't bad, not at all. Alhamdulillah, I got quite good and satisfying grades. I am thankful to Allah but still I am quite disappointed with myself. But, the past is the past. And the past shall be used to make me realize how hard I have to study next year and for the years to come, too. 

Pity me, I lost my voice. And my friends find my voice awesome and funny at the same time. I do too, but it's just plain irritating. I cannot even scream. I saw Mr. Roach running pass me when I was outside. I tried to scream but I just couldn't and so I don't like it. If you know what I mean.

Okay, enough with that..

I am currently confused with your moves. Though at times, you never fail to dazzle me. But I am confused. Your actions gets weirder each passing day. And frankly, at times it just gives me a whiplash. Your actions sometimes blurs up my days. Turning it pitch dark too, sometimes. Can't you just be honest and truthful to yourself, please ?

Make your decisions. Time is running out. And the clock is ticking. And each passing minute, I get sick and tired of waiting. Like now. So, be quick. Just a simple yes or no will do. And then, I'm done.

I heart Rob, bye.