frosted air

I wonder why some of the form three students are still going to school cause really it's just a waste of time. Added with the fact that I happened to be one of them who went to school. And I tell you, it's just pointless ?
Ah well, ain't gonna go to school anymore.

I'm at the hospital with my dad. And I must say, I've always have this fear with hospitals ever since I was a kid. Cause u know, how hospitals are. There's this eerie medicine smell that sticks on the walls of the hospital. And the environment somehow feels sick and ververy mellow. And you can feel a gus off eerieness running down your spine.
Well, I don't know, but that's just how I feel. And I wonder how it is like in the morgue. I'm sure it feels a lot like hell in there. But I still love loitering around the hospital. Especially visitting the labour ward and the children's ward. Pure bliss.

And now, boys over flowers are getting more and more addictive day by day, ho my.

I'm really really running out of ideas.

Bye.

I don't know why

But.. I get emotional real easy these days. I don't like it. I wake up in the morning starring into the mirror 'admiring' my swollen eyes. Something is bugging me. Though, I don't know what exactly is. I keep coming to that statement everytime I think of something. It's as if I'm running around in circles. And each day, those circles keep getting smaller and smaller til I finally have no where to go.
I can just cry listening to songs that I love. And off late, I am so into slow songs. Ballad to be exact. It's like this Korean Drama that I'm addicted to, it triggered my emotional button all over. And the word "sarang" it's like a beat on repeat in my head.
Truthfully I'm over everything. The past will remain the past. I can't keep loitering around something that meant completely nothing from the beginning. I don't mind really. After all that I've been through these past few weeks, watching Korean Drama's non-stop, I've learnt just too much. I'm a lot stronger now. Not the weak, fragile person I used to be.

But still. I need answers. I just don't know where to begin.

I hate my phone

I loathe my phone right now. It's acting like a total moron right now. I need a new phone. But, i'm saving the money that I have to pamper myself by buying other things like, ur clothes ? Internet life ain't that fun anymore. It's total boredom actually.

Should make a list on good and beneficial things that I could do.

peliknya

"Kadangkadang, kita rasa macam hidup ni dah tak bermakna tapi pada zahirnya, apa yang buat kita rasa hidup ni tak bermakna tulah yang buat hidup kita ni bermakna. Faham tak ?"

Bila kita rasa macamtu selalunya macam dunia ni dah nak berakhir padahal esok bangun alhamdulillah masih hidup boleh breakfast makan Nasi Lemak dengan Hot Milo dekat kedai makan. Biasalah kan, manusia. Macammacam telatah and gaya tersendiri. Tapi walau apa pun, sebenarnya memang susah nak faham fikiran dan cara pemikiran orang lain. Sebab semua orang dilahirkan berbeza. Tengok dna kita senang cerita semua lain. Selalunya, bila kita rasa sedih and down tu bila kita takboleh nak faham someone tu. SELALUNYA lah. Sebab kadangkadang "actions speak so much louder than words". Sorry tak tahu nak translate dalam bahasa melayu. Tapi yang paling I takfaham, kenapa bila dunia kita dah cerah sangat inside and out, time tu lah kita ditimpa dugaan yang melimpah ruah. Okay, bukan takfaham susah nak terima sebenarnya. Faham sebenarnya. Tuhan nak test kesabaran kita. Yes, I sabar terima everything. Tapi kenapa manusia cepat berubah ? Sekejap everything macam fun, happy and semua macam cool jelah. Lepastu, terus you ni siapa, i kenal u ke ? tak kan so janganlah kacau i. Something like that lahh. Isn't that just weird ? Janganlah macamtu. Takda kebaikan apa pun. Menyakitkan hati and lebih merumitkan keadaan adalah. So baik jangan. I'm okay sebenarnya. Dah biasa. Masalah datang and pergi. Tapi macam I selalu cakap sebelum ni, bila masuk je pintu rumah, mesti happy balik. Maybe, keajaiban ada family macamtulah kot. So be thankful for everything that you have.

Taktahu kenapa hari ni macam teirngin nak post dalam bahasa melayu rojak. Macam fun je. Tapi konklusinya, susah betul nak faham hati budi orang lain, kan ?

iris

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am.

stardolls

I'm so bored. Life after PMR is not that fun after all.
It is but only if there was something functional and beneficial to be done.
All I do now, is eat, sleep, clean the house and go online.
Pfffttt. What a way to spend your 'so-called' sweet victory.
Ain't that sweet after all.

confusion

I'm amazed with people's attitudes.
Be it an adult or a teenager or even a child.
I just don't get it.